My creativity is all what I have. It saves me from loneliness, pain and fears. But in the same time it makes me feel lonely, it reflects my pain and it creates my fears. And every time when I want to say something, but have noone to talk to, I write it down. And when later I look upon everything I've ever written, I feel my loneliness even sharper, because I have got thousand pages with thousand thoughts and it means that I have had thousand moments, when I have noone to talk to.